I have a confession to make.
Sometimes, my ambition unhinges me.
I get greedy and want everything RIGHT. HERE. RIGHT. NOW. and will do everything in my power to make it so.
I’ve been in enough big show barns to recognize that a lot of ugly comes out of people when they feel the pressure of their goals come within reach.
Yet, the funny thing is– those are the times where I LEAST enjoy riding.
The goal and my scheming mind team up on how to obtain it. Slowly, they creep in together and take over my heart.
Usually the shifts are subtle: try and cram in a few additional things here or there, push a little harder in a new direction, be in a bit more in a rush and BAM! my heart gets left behind.
I began to wonder: what is it REALLY that I am after?
Scores for my “r” judging credential application?
To do be at a certain level again?
To do the tricks?
No, no, no, no, and no.
I’m here for the joy of the ride.
For the partnership.
For the journey.
I need to keep my focus on why I ride, not just the direction I want to go in. Maps and arriving at the destination are good, but enjoying the trip is even better.
When I get busy and want to pack in even more in my life– those are the times I most need to make sure my heart is leading the way.
What about you?
Next time you go to swing your leg over your horse, take a few breaths and make sure you’re taking your heart along for the ride.